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Introducing a pay what you can option for Studio Club membership

dahlias at dusk

A few years ago my friend Liz introduced me at an event as someone 'disrupting the face of retail'.

At the time I thought it hilarious, for in reality I will do almost anything to avoid conflict, but now I'm considering adopting it when people at parties ask me what I do. I'm contemplating living up to the description.

Over this past year, with so much time alone to think, I've become more and more discontented with the way we do things as a society, with the way we treat people, with what we are doing to the natural world, with all the things we put up with just because 'that is the way it is'.

So many things need to be disrupted in the world today. I now cannot bear to run a business unless it is disrupting some of them.

These are a few things that I hold to be simple truths.

We do not reward the right things with money in our society. Over the past week I have been helping to look after my parents-in-law in their home. My mother-in-law has dementia and keeping her calm, engaged, safe, fed and stable is a difficult and exhausting job. It is a job that needs great patience, sensitivity, empathy and stamina.

It is likely that the carers who took over the role from today are being paid minimum wage, possibly less if they are on a contract that excludes travel time.

I'm not even going to go into the plight of unpaid carers, the chronically ill, the people on universal credit or those here as refugees and asylum seekers on minimal benefits. I will simply say that money is not distributed fairly in our society and that all business owners should be mindful of that.

It should be a basic human right that we are able to connect to the natural world. We are all part of that world and need to be able to engage with it- whether that is having access to green space, areas to grow things or spaces to sit and contemplate the world around us. I also believe that it is a basic human right to be able to cook and eat nourishing food and to have access to local, affordable, seasonal ingredients.

As the owner of a business that is slap bang in the middle of all those things, selling seeds, writing recipes, photographing nature, I need to be much more inclusive than I have been in the past.

The forces of capitalism and consumerism rely on forcing constant growth. They engineer that by deliberately making people feel that their worth is something outside themselves - something that they need to buy - rather than intrinsic to every single one of us.

In the 1980s, the American feminist writer Audre Lord wrote a famous essay about how using traditional patriarchal academic frameworks was simply disguising the racism and homophobia within feminism and stopping the braver, more inclusive, discussions that could dismantle them. "For the master's tools will never dismantle the master's house. They may allow us temporarily to beat him at his own game, but they will never enable us to bring about genuine change. And this fact is only threatening to those women who still define the master's house as their only source of support".

This is exactly how I currently feel about consumerism - footering around inside a traditional consumerist business model, tinkering at the edges, just isn't enough any more (though for a long, long time I felt that consumer culture was my only source of support and I really do understand that fear). My version of the 'good business' simply disguised the need for change. Instead I need to actively help people to see that they are enough already.

While I was on my 'holiday' last week I thought about this a lot - about how I can change the business without destroying it (see there is that fear). I had already moved all the seeds and supplies into something that is pretty much a co-operative buying model. I buy in bulk, I pack into smaller amounts and sell to members direct without a mark up (though there is a packing charge as I will need to pay somebody to do that at some point). I'm writing growing guides which I will send with orders so that people have the very best chance of growing things successfully (I've completed the sweet peas, the rest will follow).

What is new is that I am going to introduce an integrated 'pay what you can' membership level to the Club. It is something that has actually always been there in the small print, but people had to email me so I could set it up. As soon as I actually thought about how that feels, I realised it was ridiculous to think that was more accessible.

And the fear is there - talking to people about my plans has led to startled expressions, lots of people have used the 'brave' word, even 'cavalier' (from Euan). My parents think I may be deranged. What if everyone decides to grab a bargain and pay as little as possible? What if I have a repetition of the Mumsnet fiasco?* What if I destroy the business and have to quit and get a 'proper job'? And what if certain friends are right and this is actually just a fear of money, a playing small, an excuse to fail.

But it had become clear while on holiday that we are in this anxious time for the long haul, that having the tools to connect to nature, to grow things, make things, to actively engage rather than escape - that all these things are incredibly important. They are more important than whether I'm a bit scared that people will take advantage.

* When I first launched the club I had a voucher for a free month and a welcome pack. Somebody posted on Mumsnet that you could sign up, "get your free stuff" and then cancel before paying anything. And lots of people did. And I lost a lot of money. And I lost a lot of faith.

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Gillie Smellie

I think you are being very brave but you are not alone in your decision to reconsider the future and how that future is created. The quote from Audre Lorde sums up the approach of disrupters across the social and political spectrum. Yes, I am sure there will be people who take advantage, those who can well afford a full price but chose not to. But there has been a paradigm shift over the past few years, and the pay what you can (and similarly pay what you feel - used particularly in arts venues and based on perceived value rather than ability to pay) is no longer seen by everyone as a cheap option, but a means to share one's own resources whilst one has them, we are all acutely aware today how rapidly the financial rug can be pulled away under one's feet . I know several organisations (from food to art) who have used PWYC and have not lost revenue but instead seen overpayment subsidise the underpayment by those who would otherwise be excluded.

Exclusion is something that we don't tend to realise until it applies to us. We may know that various minority and socio-economic groups are excluded from an activity but it is easy to think of it in theory, rather than the reality that affects the excluded. Exclusion is intersectional and is often self-perpetuating, every step that removes one barrier makes it easier to dismantle another.

I also smiled when I read your earlier post about monetising a hobby. Whilst juggling various plant dye pots on the stove and in the garden and patiently hand sewing and rebel stitching projects, my husband asked why I didn't set up as a business. I said I love what I do, if I monetise it I may no longer be able to love it so much. I have fallen down that rabbit hole before and don't wish to do so again. Perhaps I should consider PWYC or PWYF and be as brave as you are.


Thanks Gillian - I believe that you are right, though it was rather horrifying researching this as to how many people are not of the same view as us!
(Danielle LaPorte's comments in particular are full of people choosing to pay as little as possible for her planners - paying a price that she says in the product listing doesn't cover any staff costs - 'because the postage to the UK is so high').
I am very aware that this is something I would not have considered doing while I was paying people's wages - it would have felt too risky I think, I would have worried that I was in fact as naive as people say.

Gillie Smellie

Most organisations I know that use PAYF/PWYC are co-ops, the risk is taken collectively. I can understand that the need to pay wages can make risk taking more frightening as it is not just your livelihood at stake. I suspect that Danielle LaPorte and other larger organisations that go down that route do so on limited income streams to ensure overall revenue is not drastically affected. Not so easy if you are a small organisation with only a handful of income streams and staff salaries to consider. I wonder if purchasers of DLP's planner, for example, thought that as she was a high profile individual with a large and (presumably) profitable business, she didn't need the money, but would have thought differently if it was a small start up? Even as purchasers we have bias!

Kate Main

There is so much to say about this. Pay what you feel has been used by the restaurant industry to encourage trade on quiet weekday nights. By being in the venue it’s much more difficult to pay too little - you feel more of an obligation.
I know you’ve written before of having Instagram followers who have your values and you would hope that this would sustain a more inclusive business model.
A fourth sector model of social enterprise wouldn’t necessarily work for what you plan.
I am really interested in what you’ve written and your concern for change. Fully inclusive does have risks of you being exploited - does your business model allow you to thrive? Does a pay it forward model work outside the arts ( or food for homeless - SocialBite) where there is a strong sense of engagement ...... so back to the value of engagement online.
I’d be very interested to read your continued thoughts through your website - please keep writing.


Thanks Kate - Yes it is all a big experiment! I have no idea if it will work or whether people will feel put off, or indeed that it is unfair.
All I know if that if I am truly committed to having as many people connect back into seasonal living and into being part of the natural world, as a source of individual strength to move out from - well then I have to make that as accessible as possible (there are other levels of accessibility besides cash as well which I am also trying to address)

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It is my birthday today and I intend to spend most of the day in the garden. 
There are a couple of orders to send out and some seedlings to drop off, but then it will just be me and this little menace pottering around the vegetable patch and putting seedlings in the ground (and hopefully not digging them up).
Then I will be away from the main Instagram feed for a couple of weeks. 
I will still pop up from time to time in the Studio Club stories feed, but otherwise I'll be on a social media break.

📷 @katgoldin 

#slowliving #mindfulgardening
My elder daughter Zoë asked for a stripy jumper knitted with wool dyed from the garden.
These are the finished skeins - currently curing in the studio - dyed with sweet cicely, dock, bay, birch and nettle.
In a month they will be ready to knit with.
The slowest of slow fashion.

#slowstitching #slowfashion #naturaldyeing #foragedcolour #foragedcolor #naturaldyersofinstagram #sustainablemaking #sustainablecraft #plantdyedyarn #plantdyes
I find that, unless I have a particular time set aside for doing something I often simply don’t get around to it.

Even when that thing takes half an hour, even when I really want to do it. 

So this weekend, in the Studio Club, we set aside some time to start making a balm from daisies. 
I videoed myself as I went along and was there to answer questions. 

It made me realise that it’s actually quite difficult to see from the outside all the things that go on in the Club week to week. 

So I’ve decided to send an extra email every month , just to the people on the waiting list, giving a access to something that is usually members only. 

If you’ve been wondering whether the Studio Club is for you, you can join the waiting list via my profile. 

The next opening is in August. 

#sustainablemaking #slowliving #seasonalhome #daisybalm #herbalife #startwhereyouare #
Kat Goldin came round for a cup of tea and a natter last week - and took this photo of me for the next edition of A Seasonal Way.
I'm posting it today because it shows off the dress that I am inordinately proud of having knitted! 

The bodice is the Deren cardigan by @jacquelinecieslak and the skirt just flares out from that into a mid calf twirl. 
My pride is in the keeping going with the knitting . . . and in eventually using up some of the cones of wool silk yarn that I bought from a mill closure in 1984.

📷 @katgoldin 

#derensweater #derenpullover #jacquelineceislak #embodycapsulecollection #memademay2022 #memademay #memademayplus #memade2022 #sustainablefashion #seasonalhome
A week in dyes - recycled cotton threads from the dye pots, sorted, labelled and curing in the Studio.
From left to right
Sweet Cicely and iron
Bloody dock
Bay and bloody dock
Bay and iron
Sweet Cicely and bloody dock,
Sweet Cicely

This year I’m exploring layering up colours and creating depth and also trying to work out how the base effects colour. 

#botanicaldye #alchemy #growyourowncolour #gameoftones #plantdyed #naturallydyedwool #plantdyersofinstagram #craftwithconscience
#shadesofnature #extractedfromnature #inspiredbynaturesbeauty
#slowstitching #sustainablemaking #foragedcolour
I picked this Black hero tulip when it fell down in the wind and put it so the evening light could shine through the petals - for unlit it looks a little undefined, a little absent, as many dark flowers do.
Then as I took this photo it reminded me of the art nouveau drawings of Margaret Macdonald Mackintosh - the willowy bend, the swoop of the curved base, the full head.
Now I find myself speaking to it as I pass.

#howihueit #simpleandstill #capturequiet #beautyyouseek #calm_collected #aseasonalway #aseasonalshift #cornersofmyworld #slowlived #slowandsimpledays #quietchaotics #tulipblackhero #windowsillwednesday #ihaveathingwithwindows #ofsimplethings #beautyinsimplicity #floralstories #allthingsbotanical #underthefloralspell #slowfloralstyle #petalsandprops #nestandflourish #livethelittlethings #thehappynow #ihavethisthingwithflowers #moodforfloral #cornersofmyhome #aseasonalway #slowlivingforlife #aflowerfilledlife
It is warm enough to have the doors to the dye deck open again - this week there are dock, sweet cicely, bay and nettle in the dye pots, a shuffling around as they steep and simmer.
Today I shall be writing up my initial results for dyeing with bloody dock (rumex sanguineus) for a Studio Club blog. 

I love having that space to put up progress reports - and the report is  very much in progress as the colours on wool and cotton were radically different - so members can follow along with my experiments.
Doors close to the Studio Club tomorrow - and the next intake of new members will be in August. If you fancy a summer of seasonal inspiration and slow living then you can find out more and join at

📷 @katgoldin 

#mystudio #simpleandstill #capturequiet #beautyyouseek #calm_collected #aseasonalway #aseasonalshift #cornersofmyworld #slowlived #slowandsimpledays #quietchaotics #ofsimplethings #beautyinsimplicity #allthingsbotanical #mindfulsewing #foragedcolour #nestandflourish #livethelittlethings #thehappynow  #plantdyersofinstagram #aseasonalway #slowlivingforlife
I wrote a letter to the new Studio Club members yesterday. 

It was all about Euan’s Granny, and what she said to me when I was a stressed thirty year old. 

It was about what I thought she meant at the time and what I realise she meant now. (The letter actually goes out tomorrow morning so don’t worry if you haven’t got it 😂)

Then I took this photo of tulips at the ends of the vegetable beds and I remembered that at the time I was receiving the grandmotherly advice was also the year that I grew striped tulips for the first time. It was in my back garden in Old Kilpatrick and I took a bunch through for her. 

When we look back there is often such rhythm to our lives. 

#growyourownflowers #slowliving #cornersofmygarden #slowflowers #aseasonalway

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